I have not went all out for you or pursue u because I thought if I do so, will this just be like a dream or fake.
I dont dare to want you or own you
Or dream of having u because I never have anyone else in my life , that would stay
I feel unworthy for any relationship or for anyone to love me.
I dont dare to be loved and keep pushing you away.
I dont dare to put u in my heart and to see you not having to care about me at the end of the road.
Your incident with her makes me feel v unworthy of myself. I feel unimportant that I am not worthy of those conversations.